NO TIME FOR A BREATHER OR BLOG

I'm on a hiatus.

The purpose of chronicling this season in Japan as I have, has reached its end. Next season is going to be different. I'm still going to here, now for another year, but this one is ending and all the players will change.

I'll still keep this blog, but its form will metamorphose into something else over summer since I haven't had the time and won't have the time to journal regularly over the next two months.

There's a lot of good reading material in the archives. It's so great to remember how God's moved in my life.

Audio: Say Goodbye by Sanctus Real.
Biblio: Von Bek by Michael Moorcock.
Cerebrio: Life is getting a bit much. It's that I don't even have time a breather to blog.

A SEASON SUMMARY

So, its set. I'm going.

July 4th: BANGKOK
July 6th - 13th: KO SAMUI
July 13th: BANGKOK.
July 14th - 23rd: Yangon, MYANNMAR.
July 23rd - Sept 5th: SINGAPORE.
September 6th: Osaka, JAPAN.

Home for 7 weeks! The last time I was home for anything more than 2 weeks was 2002!

I'm never very good with awkward moments and feelings which no words can describe so I've been thinking about something encouraging to share with L who is leaving Japan for good. I went through my early entries into this journal on the matter of leaving Sydney for Japan and I found bunch of stuff to remind me what it was like.

JUST A GIRL
The whole going to Japan thing can be overwhelming and scary. It is a lot harder for me to leave here for somewhere new than it was for me to leave home for to come to Sydney. One would have thought, it would have been easier.

THE SAME SIDE OF THE MOON
Time is just ticking by and there are some friends I dread leaving. Like Lirps. Truth is, I don't know and I can't see when I might see Lirps again.

THE MYTH OF ORIGINS
The problem with being a global worker is that there is always a confusion about where one is from and where one is coming from... the sense of misplacement in leaving our material and physical homes, the lives we live as christians also balance similarly in our spiritual reality...

EMO
Nothing is more obvious to me now than the passing of an era of my life. Everything yells and echos in my head that my time here is up. Few of the peers I started with are still hanging around Sydney and the faces in my life are all relatively fresh.

I HATE GOODBYES
... enough people have bought me farewell drinks and dinners and have started asking me about the countdown. So, I went home to check just how many more wednesday night sessions I would be having with these integral people in my life. Two. Oh shit.

WHAT'S EATING THE CHILIBUDDY
Everything is a see-saw. I'm sometimes crazy happy and I really am and then sometimes I'm just in the shits and almost ready to tear.

RUN YOUR FINGERS DOWN MY BACK
I should know when to say goodbye and it's pretty soon. I’m sad I’m leaving the chimp but I’m not sad that I’m leaving it with no regrets of the possibility of ruining it if I misjudged my commitment to our friendship.

MY LIFE IN 10 BOXES
I've rehashed my Japan story trice today already. If one more person asks me how I feel about going away, I'm going to shoot dagger eyes at them.

BOY SHAPED HOLES
I’ve been so self-centred about my going away even though I should have known better that there would be you to take care of that and my bigger worries so I could concern myself with the responsibilities of being your child.

IT'S ALL GOOD
I'm past the point of caring anymore. I have an attention span of an eight-year old and a memory of an eighty-year old. I'm sad, but it's a lot better this way.

NO TITLE
Mild panic begins to set in. Attempt to pack in aid of its relief, but forced to lie down because of butterflies in my stomach. Slightly nauseous. Wonder if its physiological.


Audio: Just Looking by The Stereophonics.
Biblio: The Sacred Romance by Brent Curtis and John Eldredge.
Cerebrio: Today's been a good day. And tomorrow is already thursday! YAY!